something just freaks me out.

on mon. something happen.
today again.

but two different things. although they have relatively close relations. argh long stories.
all assoicated with moody things. thangs. LAWLS. need to control~~~~~~~~~~~ or sure. will get loads of. criticism. yeap. yeap. not to mention small coffee shop talk

AI YA. i think my brains just swimming too much with many things. although i've yet to find out what. but uh// its just the getting up early that's turning me into a beast rather than more humane. hah. structured programme sucks you life. like. literally. you cant run away from the suction. what am i talking about?? lawls. yeah. too many things filling my head to the point that i cant seem to display the right emotions in circumstances. =.="
HEY, its probably logical. i mean i dont usually get all worked up over such things?? my gosh. dont tell me.. i'm getting on in years like real badly?!? noooooooooo. menopausal? okok. impossible. erm. PMS? no leh. doesnt seem like it. whatever, brain you'd better get better by like tmr or erm. every alternate day. i need to revamp myself. like.. recall brain

that was real crap. ignore it. you'll only make yourself do stupid stuff like. face the wall and picture my face there and try to head butt me, while of course kidding yourself that i'm actually on the wall. and yeah. then 头破血流! haha. love the chinese! yayayay. sorry.

the brain's gotten better of the emotions.

SPEAK TO THE HAND FROM TODAY.
GOODBYE ALL THINGS BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL. D:D:

i suddenly wonder.
when was the last time i thought things through like seriously.

dunno just a sudden thought. haha









btwesmilesandregrets.

omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. my life is ruined.
anyway

LAWLS. i didnt know my post would be so effective. haha
now you can start calling/messaging me!

my gosh. the pearl care centre visit.
younger generation = gets worse. not saying i very mature but its the painful fact of life. sorry. dont slaughter me on this
tiring for one. didnt expect it at all can. the kids know words...profane manzxxzzz.8 years old know words that i only learnt of when i was 10? ya. -whacks forehead-
andand its the same sexist thing going on.. yeah. you should go figure..
mainly:*AH*B*C*F*KNS they even spell it out. -whacks head somemore-

and we're taking them out next wed. i shall learn. learn. it was never hard to be handling children. i appriciate teachers more manzxxzz! :P
one girl even called LX CHER! so cute :D:D. not bad. she might be a teacher next time!

got hyped later. they said i was left behind at PCC. haha. dunno leh. might be ba. :D:D

OUT!

i'm a butthead who forgot to retrieve my phone from my cousin's house. :D say congrats to me.

and i realise i've been forgetting things these few months. okay for the whole year. its either i dont try hard enough to take note of my surroundings or i'm plain forgetful or i have STM.
i'm betting its the last one. T_T
but i aint that old yet. so it must be the first..

WHO'S COMPLAINING
yeah. so i'm without a phone for at least a week or so. just hoping and praying hard that i can get it in the course of the week.

PLEASE!

SO UP TILL THEN. NO MESSAGES NOR CALLS WILL BE ENTERTAINED. SO. DONT EVEN TRY PUSHING THE 'SEND' BUTTON TO JAIME HP OR JAIME OR WHAT HAVE YOU LAA.

sorry kids/people.
this girl's a forgetful one.

259 post. DEDICATED TO VANESSA CHUA XIN YI

HAAAAAPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAAAAAYY
its your birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday
happy Birthday!
TO THE PRETTY COUNSELLOR WHOM I MET WITH AN OPENING LINE OF " THE LONGEST I EVER TALKED ON THE PHONE WAS SIX HOURS" classic. classic.
and DARLING WHO WAS SUCH A DARLING TO POST THE FLASHEST POST FOR ME ON MY BIRTHDAY.
THIS ONE'S FOR YOU. AND YOU BETTER NOT DO IT AGAIN IN THE NEAR FUTURE. BUT ITS OUR LAST YEAR TOGETHER IN THE SAME CLASS. UNLESS WE CAN MAKE IT TOGETHER TO SEC 3 WHICH I KNOW WE WOULD, YOU SHOULD REMEMBER THIS BIRTHDAY MESSAGE FOR 10 YEARS OR MORE LATER :D:D I'LL PERSERVE THIS BLOG FOR MANY YEARS PEOPLE!
HAPPPPPPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY AGAIN :P

and we're quits. haha. i did mention i will owe you one!! THIS IS IT. dont fall off the chair.

trying to swallow the disappointment down//
its so random. i mean i have nth to worry about and...actually there is but i cant undo it. so. why fret the whole darn day and like...just need to get over it. itsssss ovvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrr. seriously, psychology doesnt work on me. D: and my spelling's still not up to scratch. SAD.

anyway. yeah. if you would've guess, maths paper 2 today.
shant think too much about it. its the beginning of the road down disappointment for me. i dunno how to put it. its all mixed up like cement right now. got distracted just now. it broke my chain of thoughts.

I THINK TOO MUCH. PERIOD.
maybe, i should stop all this deep thinking altogether.
makes life more carefree and easy to live. more empty. yet lived to the fullest.
get what i mean?


so to he** to the papers i did.
just get results and jump up and down the wall/building.
but the latter's impossible..
i have a bright future! :D:D.
its sucidalllllll......... =.="""


no poems. eh wait. feel like one!

making faces in the air(7)
whispering many things(5)
rising meaningful eyebrows(7)
signals that misunderstand.(5?)

trying a hiaku out.
looks like it failed.



SOBS. I'm OUT! :D
still too many things on my mind.

I NEED THE-RAPY
/THE-RAPIST.
oh no. obscence!

i'm the only mutant daring enough to be sleeping for 3 hours instead of cramming for mid-years. WOW. you're really done for this time JAIME. thanks.. i dont mind if i end up at the bottom! :D:D// super duper deserve it. really really really x100^infinity. yeap yeap. dont think of rebutting it =.=" i really deserve it. full time 100%. HAH PEOPLE. dont give me anything about it will never happen or anything along those lines. wont fail the works. if things didnt happen unexpectedly, what's possibilities to you and what's disappointment for you,. yes. yes. i shall never take into account this stint for EOYs. trust me. but i'd want to go to a double sci class. not triple. but i dont know if i have a choice sometimes. it comes too hard for me to get what i want in this school. really. they start nerd talks. trust me you wouldnt want me to go there. NOOOOO~

whatever. thats about enough of my predicament on the MYEs. NO HOPE FOR ME LA.
so i'll encourage you to shuddup and study instead of read this
many people will rejoice and many people would start jeering.
maybe thats what i wanted all along. to have people look down on yours truely.
idk. sounds weird for a person like me.

what else. yeah. i've not picked up a book in the last 48 hours. NAHAHAHAHAHA.

doesnt look nice on my blog. so i'm extending it! HAH!
idk la. like blaaddly shicks bladddly shicks la.
feel like all the curses in the world. FEEL LIKE ANOTHER ONE OF MY POEMS AGAIN LAWLS.

i begin,
and i have the end in mind
i'm halfway through,
i loose sight of the end in mind
i'm on the verge of ending,
the end doesnt seem so near
clouding out my vision,
teeming with danger.
the end finally comes,
its worth the journey in the end.
i did begin,
but i had to stop and stare...